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I TRIED
Crowdsourcing Accountability
And then hit the wall
I’ve made a promise to myself and the people around me to be more positive this year, to stay out of the bogs and bear traps of criticism, gossip, and judgment, and to be a kinder person.
And I will.
But first, I have to reach back into 2019 and reflect on some promises I made last year in support of my physical health, because if the fit of my clothes right now is any indication, I did not succeed and I really, really wanted to. My health goal at this point is not to get back to a certain weight but to live a long, productive, and illness-free life. I also want my clothes to fit because I like them, I paid money for them, and I don’t want to waste them. Finally, I feel better about myself when I control my habits and not the other way around.
So, I stand before you today, a person with a history of disordered eating spanning four decades as measured by weight that has fluctuated by up to 30 pounds. I need your help. It’s been my experience that accountability works where other strategies don’t. I wish I could do everything for myself by myself, but the world doesn’t work that way.
